someone who i consider on of my best friends is no longer talking to me and completely hates my guts.

this definitely ranks among thee most sucky birthdays ever...

UPDATE TIME!!!

So yeah, back in Potsdam.

I FINALLY got a library job, I am Orchestra Librarian for the one and only Dr.Lanz. You gotta love this man and is absolute randomness.

Also have an internship lined up for the spring with the Library archives (concentration in music)

Checking into studying abroad in Australia next Fall with Josh and Hilary (my two most favoritest people in the world....except for Diana of course!)

What else? ASTA secretary, in Crane Symphony, got a job in the Clarkson PIT Orchestra, HANDBELL CHOIR (which is THEE best group EVER!!!) and yeah. That is it, besides my actually classes which are going pretty well.

I look forward to observing back home again and seeing how things are changing. Kind of hope I can get involved and play a bit of cello and/or bass here and there just for some real life experience.

Might be adding a history major, Information Science minor, and perhaps something else next year. Music technology has become a MAJOR interest of mine and I would love to give a class or two concidering I am certified for it. YAY!

Anyhoo. Das ist alle! hope everyone is doing well and adjust to school again.

Last night was AWESOME! Hungout with Laura and Diana at the DP where we had dinner and Dessert. Then stopped by my house, introduced them to Oliver and picked up some socks for them before heading down to lanes for some bowling. My games were DEFINITELY embarrassing but Diana and Laura definitely had some nice shots going by the end. WHOOT for a double strike in one of Diana's games (AND dropping the bowling ball during a WONDERFUL fit of laughter)!

You guys are the best!

Thanks :o)

P.S.- School stuff is finally looking up. more on that once I actually have something of substance to say.

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Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is medium.
In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.
But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!
There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is high.
You've loved, lost, and loved again.
You have had a wide range of love experiences.
And when the real thing comes along, you know it!

Dominance:

Your dominance is high.
It's your way or the highway when it comes to love.
You like to be very involved in your sweetie's life.
No question, you like to be the one calling the shots.

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is low.
You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.
No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.
You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.
And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.

Independence:

Your independence is high.
You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love.
Having your own life is very important for you...
Even more important than having a relationship.</font></td></tr></table><div align="center"><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/thefivevariablelovetest/">The Five Variable Love Test</a></div>

I'm not sure how to say this in a way for people to understand but I realized a few weeks ago while listening through Shostakovich's string quartets that I couldn't hear the music anymore. It was just sound.

I am so f***ing tired of feeling like my life peeked at 17 and now I have nothing left because I screwed up everything.

EDIT: sorry for the uncreative word usage.